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I have had a terrible time sleeping the past few weeks. I keep waking myself up early (as in, I just can't sleep, not that I set my alarm clock to get myself up) because I am constantly running through all I have to do.
Today I woke up at 6. Then 7. And I forced myself to stay in bed til 8. I was amazed when the clock showed 9:20 (which is really 9:03...it's 15 minutes fast - 0r supposed to be - I mess up the time every once in a while when I set my alarm, adding a minute here or there). That little bit of extra sleep helped slow me down. I am a bit more calm and relaxed today - the first time in a while. Not rushing out for an appointment or frantically making phone calls or packing up my apartment. A lot of that still needs to be done, but I don't feel the urgency of it today. Thankfully.
And I realized this is the last pre-wedding Saturday morning to myself. Next weekend, I have a hair highlighting appointment and then our food tasting after that. The weekend after that is our rehearsal - we are having a morning rehearsal and brunch to follow. The weekend after that, I will be waking up in our hotel room, the morning after my wedding.
It's kind of a weird feeling...all of these lasts. Stuff I sort of took for granted...going upstairs to grub a dinner from my parents, having my nephew who lives upstairs come downstairs to watch The Office with me, having my parents puppies peak their faces through the staircase railing to say goodbye as I walk downstairs...
This has been life for me for a long, long time. I don't know that I have ever had a life change this big...not since college maybe. It's weird to think that 36 years of doing things is about to change. It is a good thing, but the only way I can describe it is surreal. I feel like I am a character in a story, acting out a part. It doesn't feel like me yet, like this is my life. It's all good, it just feels strange and unfamiliar...but strange in a good way.
No major wedding plans today...a few phone calls, a little bit perusing on the internet. But I think I need today to just be at home - in my apartment and at home in my life at present - and not make plans or arrangements for my life in the future.
That being said, I am going to enjoy doing laundry, grading papers and convincing James to take me out to dinner tonight.
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Those last "free" days are sweet, but those first married "together" days are even sweeter! Enjoy it all :)
ReplyDeleteOh, I love so much when you said that you feel like a character in a story, acting out a part. I feel like that A LOT, and it's comforting to know someone else feels it, too. I've never been able to put words to it like what you did.
ReplyDeleteI'm so excited for you. It's bittersweet, I know, saying goodbye to the only life you've ever known and embarking on this brand new adventure. It's going to be wonderful.
So.....I'm not by a calendar right this second and, quite frankly, am too comfortable to get up and go look at one....and my brain is mush from an early morning at church.....so I'm not calculating it all very well. I feel like I should know this, but what exactly is your wedding date?
Enjoy your last few days as a single lady! I'm sure these last couple of weeks will be great and the years to come even greater!
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