M.I.A.

Yeah, that's me. It's been 8 days since my last post. I'm so bummed because I so want to be able to devote more energy and time to blogging...but...I just don't have it.

I started this blog for alot of reasons...for myself, to connect with others, to track my journey to my wedding, to voice my epiphanies and other random perceptions. And I just feel kind of crappy that I fell off the boat for a while.

I'm struggling to write this post...should my voice be cute and upbeat, spilling out the dizzying list of all that has been happening, contributing to why I haven't blogged? Do I pour out my raw, dismal feelings at the moment? Do I just post something, so I don't lose my momentum and bail altogether?

The long and short of it is this...I have so many pressing obligations that I have had to force myself away from the computer. And it kind of sucks, because this is something I really enjoy. But when I have a demanding full-time job, another part time job, what feels like another job in planning a wedding - and a relationship and upcoming marriage that needs my time and energy too...I just have to devote my attention to the immediate.

So where does this leave my blog for the moment? Well, I am still here. I don't want to abandon it all together. I don't think I could. I love the friends I have made here and I love where it's going and I love the creativity energy I feel when I write. Although it's not getting the attention it deserves, it is not going anywhere and hopefully it will survive this phase of malnutrition and neglect.

But I've seen how it is so easy to lose your rhythm, even when you miss just a few days. And sometimes, I am such a perfectionist, I don't want to post unless it is the 'perfect' post. Which will never be. So, if I am going to blog at all these next few weeks, I'll have to get over that real fast.

Just so you know...all of the busyness has been for good things. So many wonderful blessings and God-stories sprinkled over the past few weeks. It started with my bridal shower on Feb. 21st...and all of the wedding plans have snowballed from there.

We are still choosing a honeymoon spot (almost done), I needed to search for car rentals (will be done once we officially book the honeymoon), we had to pick out wedding bands (happily, I can say, 'Check!').

The items for the centerpieces have been ordered, the shoes and jewelry have been purchased, the dress is at the seamstress as we speak I type. I hit a snafu with the favors - finally picked out one I loved and went with our whole theme so well...and they are out of stock EVERYWHERE. The manufacturer is out of them. So, back to the drawing board with that.

We've been mattress shopping...hopefully that will be fixed this week, did the taxes (First-Time Homebuyer's Credit is a beautiful thing...now we can really go ahead with all of these plans)...and I met with our sound rental guy tonight. Still have to decide all of the music (we have the musicians at least), finalize our menu and have our food tasting. Buy gifts for the bridal party.

And each step is SO INVOLVED!

So anyway, that is what I have been doing, and I do hope to re-emerge from time to time over the next few weeks. I apologize for not commenting or reading or being M.I.A. If you don't see me, it's pretty likely that I have been taken hostage in WeddingWorld. But word on the street is that my release date is somewhere around March 26. And it will be nice to live in the outside world permanently again.