Wednesday, February 10, 2010

So Long, Insecurity!

I've had enough of this. Seriously. Insecurity. The more I look at myself, the more I hear from other bloggers, the more I witness the behavior of other girls I know - teenagers, my students, adults - I am convinced this is the silent emotional killer of women.

I'm a fairly introspective person, and I am always trying to uncover the roots of my feelings or behavior. "Why am I feeling this way? Why am I doing this?" I've been told that my habit of introspection is sometimes on steroids - and I would agree - but the answers always seem to have their roots in that one, ugly word: insecurity.

Why, as women, are we so freakin' insecure? Is it society? Is it our relationships? Or (this is what I truly suspect) is it something that is just broken inside of us and needs to be fixed?

I always thought that when I reached the 'next' phase - a job worthy of respect, a purposeful ministry, a healthy relationship, then I would feel secure. Happy. Comfortable in my own skin.

But, even with those things, something feels 'off.' Not right. Broken. And again, maybe it is because I am the introspective type, but I get the funny feeling I am not alone.

So, in this phase of the journey, I really want to try to deal with this issue. Ideally, I would like to have it resolved before my wedding, but I don't think that will be the case. I have a feeling this will be a little more involved than just a 6-week crash course. And, I am sure I will have new insecurities to deal with even after I get married.

And here is where you come in. If you would like to join me on this leg, here is my plan. A new book by Beth Moore has crossed my path So Long, Insecurity: You've Been a Bad Friend to Us. On her website, she is hosting a book-reading blog discussion group. Each week, she is going to post an assignment and a question, and then readers will be able to respond and comment.

There are close to 5,000 people who are going to participate on Beth Moore's site , and I know, for me, that discussion is going to be a little overwhelming.I am planning to participate over there, but I am also going to host and post the same assignments and question (and maybe add a few dimensions, depending on what it looks like) over here on a smaller, more personal scale. I may even just include a quote or passage from the book for those who might want to participate but may not want to read the book.

I haven't even gotten the book yet, but I plan to grab a copy once the snow stops! She is posting her first assignment and question tomorrow, Thursday, February 11th. And I believe how it works is that there will be a week to read and comment (just like an online class).

If you are one of the fortunate secure ones, feel free to opt out. However, if you are anything like me and are wanting to get rid of this silent killer once and for all, then I hope you will hop on board. Would you do me a favor and drop me a comment if you plan to join? Then we can work on getting this all set up!

Yay! I'm excited! Soooooo long, have been a bad friend to us and I am more than ready to see you go!


  1. Sounds like a great book, and a cool project. I'm interested... :)

    Have an Extraordinary Day!

  2. Count me in. Don't know that i'll get the book but if you post excerpts from the book and questions, i'd love to do it. :)

  3. Preach on!

    I saw that she had this book out now, and thought about getting it with my leftover gift card money from Christmas. I have tons of books in my "waiting to be read" pile, though, and am already in the middle of one now, so I won't be able to read it along with you.

    If you post your thoughts and questions for us, though, I'll definitely participate. And, of course, I'll be reading the book.....once I get through the others in my pile.....

    I can't wait to hear how you like it. Beth Moore is a godsend. Literally.

  4. Can't wait! I'm hearing such wonderful things about this book all over blog land! Where do you live? She's going to be in Atlanta in April to talk on this & tickets are still available & only $35! I'm looking for someone to go with me =( It's sad when you don't have real Christian friends willing to GROW in real life & only in cyberworld! Sad, but true. I couldn't remember if you told me where you lived though. I saw on your photo blog you're in the snow zone, so I know you're in the East somewhere. Atlanta is a 5 hour drive for me. Probably too far for ya. Anywho. I hope to get the book this weekend. It's on sale at Lifeway. I'll join in next week!!